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Therapy Sessions - JLA Watchtower RPG
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Therapy Sessions
(Takes place before the scene in Philadelphia and after the Smallville plot.)

She's always been a mystery, even after almost single-handedly forming or reforming a team known for its openness. There's history. She's seen perhaps the worst and best this woman has to offer - but Donna Troy still somehow suspects she really hasn't seen the best or the worst yet from Raven. She can only pray for the worst to be in the past and to have the future be brighter for her seemingly hounded friend.

It was Raven that came to her after Despero's attack on her mind, not the other way around. She must have sensed the damage to the pleasure centers of her mind. As an empath, how could she not? And why is it that Raven seems to know when she's reaching the end of something and the beginning of something else more clearly then any of them - even Lily? Furthermore, why has she been so isolated only to emerge to defeat Dark Angel, and then now to heal her ability to feel pleasure, when Raven denies or has it taken from her every meager chance she gets?

She's here for her own therapy, but somehow, she wishes it could be Raven's as well.

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blackest_bird From: blackest_bird Date: April 24th, 2007 03:04 am (UTC) (Link)
She's waiting, quietly and patiently. She never seems to be relaxing, ever...always standing or sitting in lotus, especially these days.

Eyes hidden by the shadow of her cowl watch Donna approach, unsurprised. But then with Raven, she might have sensed her coming.

"Welcome."
middle_amazon From: middle_amazon Date: April 24th, 2007 03:24 am (UTC) (Link)
Most people use lotus position for relaxation. Donna knows her friend can use it for battle just as easily.

"Hi..." After almost a decade, there still isn't a way to figure out how to "small talk," with Raven. Still..."It's good seeing you."

Because the alternative - when Raven isn't Raven - it's not good.

"What will work best for you here?"
blackest_bird From: blackest_bird Date: April 24th, 2007 03:33 am (UTC) (Link)
It's almost eerie how she doesn't seem to move, just staring. People how know her well know that it's a cover, a mask...something to keep people away.

"Whatever you prefer. Your comfort is primary."
middle_amazon From: middle_amazon Date: April 25th, 2007 01:06 am (UTC) (Link)
You can try to hold onto the mental picture of a child, but it's a slippery thing. She can feel Lian in her arms from two years ago when Cheshire was taking her away. At the same time, Lian is a baby, looking back at her from her father's arms. Lian is a grown woman with children of her own and a radiant smile. she can hear Lian's voice as it is now, echoing through this place - crying, laughing, signing, asking questions...

And then there are the secret wishes. The ones that wished nothing had happened between she and Roy to split them apart and that Lian could have been her biological child as well - but that would have meant not Terry or Jen. Worse, no Bobby.

She's embarrassed for that one. Ashamed. It all helps feed the damage.

"It seems like everything here is a mix of happiness and pain," she notes.
blackest_bird From: blackest_bird Date: April 25th, 2007 01:12 am (UTC) (Link)
She isn't as uncaring as she sounds, but she does go right for logic before anything else.

"That's life, Donna...balance. You cannot define one without the existence of the other. You must accept both to be truly at peace."

Physically, she frowns, this analogy echoing too closely to her own problems.
middle_amazon From: middle_amazon Date: April 25th, 2007 04:15 am (UTC) (Link)
Bringing up all the desire? All the despair?

It brings up the ugly, too.

Abandoned. Used. Ugly. Convenient.

Good sweet, safe little Wonder Girl...

Raven needs me! FOCUS!

So she picks a point in her memory that will serve them all...

Garth would have been the first to notice, but after tula died, he was a brick wall. Wally was the first one to see it.

Wait...Where's Speedy?

The mission had been one thing after the other - just like her leadership. And Gods, help her, she was trying to keep them together after losing them all three times before. Keep the Titans, who were 4 wrecks and a rookie together. Nothing was together. Not her. Not her and Terry. Not her and Dick. Not the team she assembled or any of the people she grew up with.

More important...Keep her marriage together. She'd left Terry to write and save his job on his own. There would be accusations of abandonment, of unfaithfulness. Words like If you go, don't bother to come back!
jla_extras From: jla_extras Date: April 25th, 2007 04:20 am (UTC) (Link)
The strings are almost too easy to pull on.

Instead of going with any of the obvious, there is a focus on the memory of Garth and his loss. There is a swelling of emotion, almost unnamable as is flows and swamps around. Then, there is a twist at the thought of leaving Terry.

Suddenly it all feels like it is sweeping away, draining all away from her. Not the healthy empty but the hollow and lonley empty.
blackest_bird From: blackest_bird Date: April 25th, 2007 04:30 am (UTC) (Link)
Pain, hurt, loss, lonely, happy, fear, love, lust, ecstasy

She has memories of them from different times of her life, different aspects of herself...things she's done to other people, things done to her.

...no...

She twists, trying to get away from this. She's struggled so hard for so long to not be a slave to feeling, but oh, how she's missed it!

...balance...there is a balance! Donna!!
middle_amazon From: middle_amazon Date: April 28th, 2007 03:55 am (UTC) (Link)
There's only a small cry as she lets go.

Shuffling through the emotions she gave to Raven wasn't easier.

Jericho making eye contact...jumping in...falling...screaming...
Raven, for heaven sake - I loved you, Raven - and I think you loved me too. You can't kill me, you can't!
No, please don't go! Trigon is coming!
Mother, why did you not kill me?
But I see you are still a weak fool. And I pity you for it. You are my only child which has survived!
But I am to marry you, my sweet little bird, and we are to cleanse the world.
After all, my sweet, you love me as much as I love you. Isn't that right, Koriand'r?
blackest_bird From: blackest_bird Date: May 6th, 2007 04:13 am (UTC) (Link)
Love and guilt. Love and fear. Love and deep suspicion. Love and evil.

nnNNNOOOOooooooo!!! Getout! You'reafoolbutIstillregret...Hearme! CursedmewithlifeforHIMtotouch!! MistakenidiotLEAVEMEALONE! NNnnnooooooMOORRRE!!

She crumples, twitching under the weight of all of her mistakes, all of her machinations, hurts and desires.
middle_amazon From: middle_amazon Date: May 6th, 2007 04:31 am (UTC) (Link)
She's caught - and held.

"No. I won't let go." It's a whisper is a stormy sea. "Not before you let go. We've always loved you. Always forgiven. Please. Do that for yourself now."
middle_amazon From: middle_amazon Date: May 6th, 2007 06:57 am (UTC) (Link)
Donna smacks her forehead and leaves the hand there covering her face.

"It is and it isn't."

You know that 'you have NO idea,' face, Raven? It's peering back at you, with Donna at a complete loss as to what to say otherwise.
blackest_bird From: blackest_bird Date: May 6th, 2007 06:59 am (UTC) (Link)
She glances sidelong at Donna for a moment, then chuckles softly, reaching out to lay her hand on the hand of her friend.

"I'm not overly concerned about that at the moment."
middle_amazon From: middle_amazon Date: May 6th, 2007 07:08 am (UTC) (Link)
"Good, because my daughter has already had the birds and bees discussion with a Tameranean," she murmurs. "I did not think it could get stranger than that."

She peers out from the hand. "Not that it's a problem, or weird for you not to." Note to self: Teenage boys have a better imagination then even you thought. "I guess if you have questions, I'll try to go easier on you than, say, Kory."
blackest_bird From: blackest_bird Date: May 6th, 2007 01:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
Amusement seems to sparkle in her eyes before she shifts and shadows hide them again.

"I thought I'd take the analytical approach with such a situation. It isn't as if this world...this country...suffers from a derth of research material. But with my current social calendar, it isn't as if it is a pressing matter."
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